Happy Ending.

I had a voice lesson today, where I totally failed. Well, okay, not totally. There was some improvement. I haven't really been practicing because I either "haven't had time" or I actually didn't have time.

She's my voice instructor, but also kind of a counselor/therapist. lol Every time I get stressed or nervous or feel crappy about myself, it has an impact on my voice and breathing. So she has to get to the bottom of it. Today I told her about all the stress I've been feeling about prom coming up. I didn't go into much detail about it all, I just said it was stressful.

She seemed to understand what I was thinking though, about the guys not liking me. She told me about her prom story, where the guy she had a huge crush on didn't ask her to go, but that she ending up going with one of her girlfriends and she had more fun than she would have with a date. It's not that I don't get that, I mean, I probably would have more fun by myself when I'm actually there.

It's just the leading up to it is all. It's lonely. And it's kind of painful.

At school I just suck it up and deal with it. But at home I can't help but break down. Then I realize that all the stuff I hold inside all day ends up coming out when I least expect it and I can't control it. Then people ask me what's wrong and I don't know.

So yes. This is me not bottling it all up. This is me saying, yes, I would love for certain guy to ask me to prom. And this is me saying that yes, it totally sucks when that guy ends up not asking me, which he probably won't.

But either way, I know it'll all have a happy ending. Someday, it'll have a happy ending.